Saturday, September 24, 2011

The End

It was 9th of September 2011when we finally called it quits. When he said he wanted to leave my world stopped and my heart started to beat faster and I can hardly breathe. At that very moment I still wanted to work things out for us, but he already surrendered. He said that I don't deserve someone like him, that I deserve more. I guess he was right- I deserve someone better, someone who sees my importance, someone who can give me his love. Someone who can handle me at my worst and who deserves me at my best.

There was nothing I can do that night but to break down and cry. I asked myself what are my inferiority when loving him. Damn I gave everything, that I even forget myself. But still he didn't see that, and that hurts me so much. I can't believe he turned out to be a different person. That Frank I used to know, I used to loved is gone. He turned out to be someone I don't know. I just can't believe we're over this time. I can't carry on. The hardest part is everytime I wake up in the morning thinking I'm no longer his. But I still need to go on with my life, I have to move on and learn to live half a life since he's gone.

Someday I know I'll be okay again. I'll find myself again.